Pamela is growing up too fast. I am so grateful for her. She is beautiful. I am feeling overwhelmed with trying to share all the love I want to with my boys. I feel like most of my focus is the newborn pam. I don't feel like I am giving Joan enough attention . This is difficult for me because I love to give love. I love my boy so much! I feel like I am yelling at them more than I am giving love. I need to figure it out so I can give more love. Today we went to the splash pad with KELLI and her kids. It was fun!!