I can't sleep lately over the nerves of moving and change.  I am so nervous about this change coming up.  It is rather frightful.  Today we went and looked at lights for the new house.  It was stressful with Pamela and Berke.  

Pete and Ginny came to visit us because they missed their flight back home.  We had a good time with them.  Pete seems to be doing good.  Ginny is getting forgetful.  I went with her to the grocery store and she couldn't remember her children.  I remember when my grandma Afton got that way.  It is hard not to laugh at them.  

Back to work today.  It gives me anxiety to go to work.  It would be nice to not work but I think Heavenly Father knows that I need to work to get a break from my kids.   

We have a contract on our house here in West Point.  We are excited and fearful of the move to Layton.  

January is almost gone.  Sure did go by fast.  

Getting ready to leave for work.  I am still breastfeeding Pam.  The main reason I am still doing so is to help her stay healthy through the winter.  I love it.  I wish I would have fed my boys this long.  She still gets sick though.  But I feel it helps her get over it faster. 

It has been awhile.  It seems like it takes me forever to figure out the new year thing.  Pamela is doing well.  She is not talking much.  Like her mother she doesn't talk much.  She only says uh o and mamma.   Heath is saying he wants to play basketball.  He is in jr Jazz but he does not ever practice.  Berke we are trying to get him to stop wetting the bed.  Josh won't let me get a dog.  

Heath started basketball last night.  He told me he wants to play ball often and get involved with it.  I told him he needs to show that he does.  He mostly cares about electronics.  It drives me crazy!! Pam got this cute outfit from grandma for Christmas.

Pamela went to nursery for the first time yesterday and she did not cry once.  Miracles do happen.  She is so shy and cries with stangers.  She has been going to a babysitter and I think that is why she was good.

While Josh and I went to stay the night in SL.  Grandma and grandpa watched the kids.  It was a miracle to find that Pam did not cry the entire time.  Miracles happen!  She would always cry when we left her there for dates, but this time she did not!  Crazy!  Good job Pam!!!

We celebrated our 10 year anniversary this last weekend.  My parents watched our kids over night while we celebrated in slc.  We ate at the Cheesecake Factory, went hot tubbing at the Hyatt, and then went to music and the spoken word Sunday morning.  It was an amazing weekend. We took the kids to go swimming on Friday to celebrate as well.  I hate to see such fun weekends end.  I love Josh and can't wait for more amazing years with him. 

Pam is sick.  Coughing all night long!  Poor baby!  I need to take more pictures!! 

Pam went to the baby sitter yesterday and did not cry!  Miracles happen!!  Crazy.  She got down from my arms and looked at me and with her eyes, she said, "mom, I got this."

Sister Toolan came out to visit us to help Josh while I worked all weekend.  It was so much fun to see her!  She helped at church too!  Josh put Pamela in a Halloween outfit for church.  O my!!!  So funny.   Pamela is going through a zipper phase.  I will zip it up and she will immediately zip it down.  So cute!!!!

Late, late Halloween pics: